Scars

For fun (and for the sake of saving myself time) I thought I would share another of my old diary/ blog posts from High School. The following is from the first blogging site I ever joined, at age 17. The blogs I wrote back then were more like diary entries in that they were sometimes very personal. At this point in my life, I was a few months into studying Tae Kwon Do and Aikido (making good on some goals I’d made earlier in 2002).  I’ve also altered the names because it’s been over a decade and I don’t even communicate with some of these people anymore – thought I would extend them the courtesy of relative anonymity.

For anyone interested, this is a photo of the dent I refer to in the entry. Yes, still visible 13 years later – it’s the shadowed area in the middle of my shin. Admittedly more impressive in person:

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Before I leave you with this old entry, I want to remind everyone that I will be live in Google Hangouts for a live chat this coming Saturday January 23rd, at 3 PM CST. More about that Here.

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Hey there all. I’m back. I just got home from the dojo not too long ago. And I feel like I’m falling apart.

1) I have a rather freakish dent in my right shin…yes a DENT….how did it get there? I was sparring this one guy one night after Aikido and I went to give him a good roundhouse to the hip, I mean I put a lot of power into it…and he brought his knee up to block it. My shin rammed into his knee and left this dent there…I have yet to actually see a doctor about it, though I probably should.

2)The back of my left knee..I have no idea why, but the ligaments or something got pulled. pain results, Nuff said.

3) My back, again I’m not too sure why, it just hurts.

4) My left shoulder. I tackled a couch with a box frame and it smacked into a wooden beam in the middle of the couch. Yes, I am an idiot. So now that shoulder is all outta whack.

But, on the bright side, I think I have Ushiro downpat.

Oh Oh! I almost forgot! I have some exciting news! Victor, my boyfriend is going to compete in this TKD tournament later in the month! Or at least I hope he competes….he’s a 3rd degree black belt, and he is so flexible it hurts to watch, and he is just…you really have to see him in class, it can be awe inspiring. The only guy I can think of that would be a toss up in a sparring match with him is this guy Brian. Vick has more power than Brian does, but Brian is FAST. in the time it takes a human to blink, he’s fucked you up bad and made you look like a Picasso!

But seriously, I hope he competes. He should do really well. And besides, I want to camcord it and watch it over and over and over again. Partly because it’s cool, and partly because…well, you try watching a good martial artist do complicated forms…with his do bok half open and the deep rooted ki ahps…..you just try watching that and NOT get turned on! And sparring! I’m not even going to go into how much fun THAT is too watch!

Although, there is one negative side effect of knowing people who are THAT good. It just makes you feel so insignificant. Like you can’t do anything in comparison. I mean, seriously. I can’t think of a single thing I can do better than him… And I’m not all that good looking, I sometimes wonder why the hell he’s with me. Did he sit on a duck? You guys know that joke right? These people go to heaven and there is one rule, if you sit on a duck you are handcuffed to someone REALLY ugly!

Anyways, it’s getting late and I need my sleep. So I shall bid you all adieu.

-Lisa

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Throw Back Thursday

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Having fun the night before my friend, Julia, got married. Nov. 19, 2010

Welcome to Day 5 of my write-a-post-everyday-for-a-month challenge. I’ve actually been writing blogs for over a decade across multiple platforms. I used to write when I was younger as a coping mechanism to deal with stress. I still tend to do this – I have unsent letters I’ve written to people and my Facebook timeline is mundane reports of my day to day activities sprinkled with emotional rants that I almost immediately regret posting but feel compelled to in the moment (sorry, privacy restrictions require you to be my friend first, or some kind of hacker, or the government). It was much easier for me to write something every single day when all of my posts were personal – this was also when blogging was a regular form of socialization, before I bored people to death with smaller blurbs about my day on Facebook.

When I first started this blog in 2010, I had hopes to make it more professional. If you go back and re-read some of the earlier posts, you can see that I would write these researched pieces with links to sources that, at least to me, scream how fresh I was from college. I think, at the time, I had grandiose ideas about being a professional artist, thanks to the now defunct 3rd Thursday Art Shows that I was in love with. I was working at a thrift store where I became very conscious of the amount of textile waste we create, and I had much more free time to sew and create than what I do now. 2010 was a wonderful, transitional year for me for many reasons:

  • The early part of the year had me re-analyzing a 6-year relationship that I eventually chose to leave.
  • I was involved in a rather crappy dinner theatre bit that paid me and created some wonderful memories.
  • Being newly single, I had a lot of fun casually dating quite a few awesome guys – All of them remembered with fondness. Thank you for the memories and the stories I can still tell when I’m old.
  • I went to 3 different weddings – The first served as a catalyst for ending my last relationship, the second officially added an awesome person into my family, and the third introduced me to the man who would become my current boyfriend.
  • I was 25 and I really felt like I could do anything and that I had my entire life ahead of me.
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Taken from the skydeck of the Sears Tower in Chicago, Illinois by a friend. This particular trip to Chicago carries a lot of special memories that I look back on fondly. November 6, 2010.

So many things have changed over the course of the last 5 years. I have changed and grown as a person. My life is different, my priorities are different. But, overall, 2015 doesn’t feel like it has been that great of a year for me. It’s mostly been a lot of pain and deep-felt heartache. There were plenty of positive things as well. I hope that, in another 5 years time, I will be able to look back on this past year and remember these positives more clearly than I can right now.